friendship and relationship are SINKING ships!

i suddenly realized that i absolutely have no one that i can confide in. like seriously, when i watched movies or dramas, the main characters will always have someone to talk to. someone whom will be there for u no matter u need them or not. someone who will look for u when u're gone, someone who will ask about u when they heard nothing of u, who will back u up whenever someone has backstabbed u. none.

cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!sweeeeeettttttttttt

maybe its my fault cause i never let anyone know the real me, not even my family. i'm drawing a thick line, a border to anyone that try to come near. merely 'cause i don't want to get hurt. i'm protecting myself. 'cause i trust nobody. people that i've trusted all freaking talked behind my back and lied to me. i'm growing up watching people around me got hurt by people who they think they loved. i've watched all kinds of stupidity that u can imagine; girls crying over boys who cheated on them, couples fighting and made up in public, stupid exes trying to approached their partner again, girls who were madly in love and gave all of theirs to their partner and ended up crying a river when they got dumped..tell me something i don't know. and now u tell me, should i be trusting anyone right now? and at the same time, i need someone that would hear anything i want to say without judging me, someone who actually cares about me. where is this someone..'cause when i thought i've found one, they'll turn out to be a big disappointment.

since the one that i want is not going to show up, i'm going to give up and stop hoping. all along, i thought that if we just keep on praying for our ideal person, boy or girl,  eventually they'll appear. i don't know for how long i should wait so i'm just going to stop here. if u are also thinking what i'm thinking, let's stop wasting our time together okay? but if u don't agree with this, don't dirty my blog with ur thoughts, save it. open ur own freaking blog and blurt there urself. thanks for reading such a boring blog u guys! xoxo