Malaysia; senang di perut, sakit di hati~

salam stalkers..u guys jela yg setia membaca yer..i nak conteng ape plak this time ea? lets get personal shall we? haha NEVER! TETTT! haha xmenla personal2 nih because *suara berbisik* we can never trust people! u stat crita personal story u kat org, once u gadoh ka, mulut they all tiba2 bocor ka, byk free time sgt xtau nak buat apa pi cr kwn utk kongsi crita ka, mmg jenis prangai suka heboh aib org ka or all the above =  secret u guys yg kononye secret tuh, org lain akan tau jugak! hahahaha pastu style yg 'eh u jgn bgtau sapa2, sbb dia kata secret! kaotim ea?' derrrrrrrr script lain please? hahaha yg bc if terasa, bgslaa bcause that's the whole point! hahaha no heart feelings ea, its reality sayang2 sekalian~ wee

so utk kali ini, eventho in my last entry i said this time it will be personal stuffs, i'll just let u know what is inside this fragile little heart of mine. weeee aaaaa heee <--suara alien tiga mata dlm toystory. haha oklah about my hometown which is Malaysia, awhh its sooo good to be back! i missed being home so much, hanging out with my family and go jalan2 cari makan! i'm good at that! so far i've eaten soooo many delicious food thanks to my dear sis yg belanja i mcm2 yg i xpernah mkn n kempunan! haha cian dia kena layan perut adik dia nih ha..sorrylah u guys, i makan byk toksah kirala. if kat jepun time winter 8x a day yer. tp balik Msia nih, kurang sikit lah..somehow i makan sikit2 je. BUAHAHAHA mati i if i terkantoi kt sini, mkn byk je pdhl! haha tp mmg seriously, bertuah duk Msia nih; terlindung dr bencana Alhamdulillah, kaya dgn natural resources Alhamdulillah, cuti banyaaaaakkkkkk, makanan sedaaaap& mcm2 lg la. if u guys study luar negara, or pi lah vacation mana2, nnti u akan rs ur country tetap no1. no matter sehebat mana pon negara lain. TETAPI, i miss Japan so much rite now. really! i don't know why but i don't feel at ease here. i'm worried about my house, things that i have to settle, my class after this, my friends& EVERYTHING! it's something that i cannot make a decision on the spot. something that i have to think about every single day; to go back or not. Ya Allah tunjukkanlah aku ke jalan yg benar. aminnn

tu lah, mcm2 dugaan skg nih Allah bg. sbgai hambaNYA i hanya boleh cuba menghadapi setenang yg boleh. i ssh la nak suarakan what i feel sebenarnya dpn whoever. i speak to myself, confess to myself, make sentences in my head but never say it out loud. i'm just that kind of person. ntahla, i pon ssh gak nak terangkan dr i ni mcm mana. sometimes i rs i open, sometimes i rs i nih hipokrit belagak baik. i pon pening. senang cerita, i adapt to all kinds of situations. i can be verrryyy the angel if i mix with the likes, and totally the opposite if i mix with..err the opposite of the good ones. hehe mcm xboleh nak figure which one is the real me. entahlaaa pening2! anda rs bagaimana yer? lau ade sape sependapat kan best? haha yg penting, yg i tau btol2 psl dr i, i cpt rs i boleh kongsi somethg dgn org if i rs sakit hati or sedih kt sapa2 tp after awhile, i menyesal~ each time i confessed to somebody about anythg, i'd regret it later on. sbb i rs i sgt jahat..i xpatot bukak aib org kt org lain eventho kononnye its between us. sbb i akan terpikir, if org bukak cerita psl i pon i xakan suka! pelik kan? then nanti bila i berdepan dgn org yg i terasa tuh after awhile, i nak communicate dgn dia mcm mana~ maluuuuu mcm mana people want to get to know me? demn i'm sucha complicated girl. sy nak minta maaf la ea kpd semua org yg i pernah share something ke..i really hope that we will never ever pas cerita masing2 kt org lain. if kita jg aib org, Allah jg aib kita masa kena hitung nanti. nauzubillah. sama2 lah kita jaga mulut masing2 ea, igt! kerana mulut badan binasa!